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From the Pit I Was In


Dear Clare, Ezekiel and Carol, Thank you so much for this ministry, and your obedience to the Lord and His calling. I feel led to share my testimony. Am believing it will speak to someone’s heart who is struggling.

I was raised in a Christian home, went to a private school that was started by the church my parents and I attended. Even went to Bible College for a couple years. Had some wonderful experiences with Lord during that time. The church was very legalistic and so I think my spiritual growth was stunted. My conception of God was that He was mean, and would withhold His love and blessing until I had ” prayed long enough.” Unfortunately, I strayed from the fold and went into the World.  I would have been murdered by my ex-husband and his friends (the Lord showed me that was the plan of satan for my life). And one night Jesus spoke to me at my darkest moment. Jesus was, urgently, seriously, almost yelling at me, to go home to my parents house (because my parents were Godly and I was to go back as the prodigal daughter returning to the fold). He clearly conveyed that my life was in danger. I was addicted to drugs. The moment I prayed and said “yes,” the Lord began setting me free from drugs. He also provided an escape for me from my living situation…it was miraculous and I am alive, delivered and well, because of the power of the Lords LOVE and GRACE. I am forever grateful that He lifted me out of the pit I was in and and redeemed me. He will do the same for you if you only ask Him too. Oh the joy and complete Love that is waiting for you….won’t you reach out to Him right now? He is calling you,…..calling you beloved…..come, taste and see that the Lord is good. He loves you more than you could ever imagine and longs for your heart to be connected to His. Have faith and stretch out your hand to Him.

Parents, never, never give up praying for your children to come back to the Lord. My  parents never quit praying for me and I know that the Lord honored those prayers.

I am SO grateful that the Lord led me and my husband to this Channel and family, because through Still Small Voice, I have come to know the depths and width of His unfailing Love for each and everyone of us. Oh the joys that await us dear family!! We look forward to meeting each of you on the streets of gold. Rejoicing evermore…in and with Him.

Love, Priscilla

No Condemnation in Jesus


Hello Clare and Ezekiel, I have been with Jesus since birth. I mean Clare, I have never ever not known the presence of Jesus. My family are generations of men and women who love the Lord their God with all their heart, soul, and mind. When I was 10 I gave my heart to Him with my whole being and was baptized. But even at 10, there was never a memory of me not being able to speak to Jesus and know His love for me. Its just at 10 I understood sin, that it was my wrong doing that put Him on the cross. And I have walked with Him most of my life. Again, never a time where I felt like I could not speak to Him, deeply ask for forgiveness and know He would be there. So that is my background and yet I have never found a teaching like yours. Nor such a kindred spirit so to speak. Over the years I have had many experiences in prayer like the above. But I just thought it was normal for those who really were surrendered to Him. That if you really loved Yeshua our Messiah, you would love connecting with Him and meeting with Him in prayer like I do. But over the last 10 years I’ve learned not all connect with Him this way.

May He continue to fuel your ministry and provide. May He continue to reach others with His teaching through you and your husband. I deeply thank you for answering His call to this ministry and mission He has given you!!! Deep Shalom to you my brother and sister! Oh, yes, I am not looking for you to use this story. However, if Abba directs you to share this on your channel, that’s fine. I know He directed me to share with my fellow believers in my circle cause He impressed upon me this experience was not just for me. But whatever He directs you to do is always what must be done. Shalom I know Jesus as both Jesus and sometimes as Yeshua. But I’ve grown up knowing Him and loving Him and feeling His love/forgiveness and presence as Jesus.

I am struggling with the hard feelings another believer has about me. I am intimidated by the characteristic or manner of any person who is being forceful in voice when they are unhappy with something. So in prayer I was asking Jesus about this whole situation. I was upset and often when I’m really upset I tend to think and feel like a little child, a little girl and my conversation with Him tends to take on that sound. In the below conversation I did not see Jesus, I just felt Him and heard Him in my spirit. I was in tears and asked why I was afraid when people yell. He showed me that when I was yelled at with condemning words as a little girl of 3-5 years of age, I believed the words yelled at me about me. I would cover my head like a protection as though I was receiving physical blows to the head. I believed I was horrible and rotten to the core. I believed I was worthless and no good. The idea I was getting from Him was that I had received those condemning words yelled at me as true.

Jesus then asked me if I would say those kind of terrible condemning words to a child. I tearfully with conviction said, “No.” He asked, “Why?” I said, “Because it hurts them.” He asked again, why wouldn’t I say those things, He asked, “Are those words true, is a little child rotten to the core?” At this point I saw a beautiful baby so I said very whole heartedly, “NO.” “Why,” He asked. “Cause You made them,” I said. “What did I make them,” He asked. “You made who they are,” I answered. “Did I make them rotten.” Again I saw that beautiful, happy and incredibly healthy looking baby. “No,” I said. “So then did I make you rotten,” He asked. I said, “Well I don’t know, I am rotten cause I sinned and I needed the cross?” He said, “Okay, but when I made you and put you in your mother’s womb, I put your spirit in you. (I was seeing the baby) Did I make that spirit rotten?” “No,” I said, but I clarified, “But when I was growing up I did bad things and I didn’t want to really do them, but I did them anyway.” He asked, “Was it your spirit that wanted you to do those things or your flesh?” “My flesh I think,” I tentatively answered. Jesus asked, “You said you did stuff but you didn’t really want to do bad stuff, why do you think you didn’t really want to do bad stuff?” “I’m not sure,” I said unsure. He answered, “Because the spirit I put in you and the spirit I put in each child is a pure spirit from Me.” I said, “But we have the nature of Adam.” He said, “Yes, your flesh nature. But as I knit you in your mother’s womb the spirit I gave you wasn’t a fallen spirit, it wasn’t a sinful nature, it was from Me. I put this spirit in a body of flesh and yes you then have the fallen nature in your flesh, but that fallen nature is not inside your spirit because I do not create anything that isn’t pure.” “But what about when I sin Jesus? I am selfish and I have done many things that are not good, I’ve sinned a lot. And I HURT people,” I wailed with deep tears. He said, “I know, but the core of that spirit I gave you was still pure, I protected that.” I asked, “But then why do I need the cross?” He said, “When you do follow the flesh nature and sin, it does separate us, it’s like a covering.”

At this point I saw kind of thin layers of wispy darkness, shades of gray and yet in my minds eye I saw the bright shining purity of that baby’s core being. That is all I can describe it as. And I got the impression or thought, of protection and that the purity wasn’t extinguished. The thin shades of gray darkness was surrounding that beautiful purity inside the beautiful baby but that purity (the purity was seen in my mind as a warm bright light) was not totally over taken by the darkness. Then I got the thought that He put this purity of spirit in each of us in our mother’s womb. So I asked, “But Jesus what about those people who are so evil, like the people in the occult?” He VERY CLEARLY with emphasis said, “Only I KNOW when the darkness completely has extinguished the pure spirit. It is only for ME to know when the purity of that spirit has completely been overtaken by darkness never to return.” Then I got this thought “I wonder if that is the sin against the Holy Spirit.” I then thought, “Yes,” but I didn’t not get a CLEAR verbal answer like the rest of my conversation so I don’t know. I heard at that point His emphatic; “It is Only for ME to know.” Then he spoke to me more in images about my heart.

Several months ago He had me really study chapters 14 and 15 of John and sit with him to deliberate over it and ask Him to sew the truth of those scriptures into my soul, kinda like you steep tea, that kind of permeating image. The most significant scripture is John 14:20 – In that day you will know that I am in My Father, and you in Me, and I in you. At that time with that scripture He showed me a picture of two images. One image was that I was wrapped in His arms with a white cloth (like super soft warm fuzzy valure type terry cloth covering my whole body). And with me in His arms completely surrounding me in my cloth, He and I were sitting in Abba Father’s lab. This image helps me when I hear in my thoughts, that I have sinned and am separated from Him and I hear I have to crawl back to Him begging to be forgiven because I’m no good and rotten to the core. (I know I must ask for forgiveness and confess, but Clare you mentioned that He is there beside you even when you sin, longing for you to just confess. In my heart forever, I have so often sinned and then run from it and not wanted to sit in front of the cross and beat my chest in remorse. I more want to be that child in the arms of Jesus and Abba and say, I know I was wrong I’m sorry and move on. But I have never felt that was good enough, that it wasn’t true repentance unless I broke my heart open and spent hours in humility. I know there is a place and time for that, but I really like your instruction of how He longs for us to just speak to Him sweetly and purely and confess.

The following image helps me immensely with feeling free to just confess and still feel wrapped in His embrace and able to move on without a big production of being in such deep remorse it takes hours. Though again there is a time and place for that.) Then the other image was of two heart muscles being sewn together. It wasn’t a pretty picture but a bit bloody, not a lot but a bit. And that picture remains with me and has a feeling of permanence and yet a feeling of soreness. When I got this image it felt like there was utterly nothing that could sever what had been joined. And yet this soreness remained.

When I was talking with Him today, and thinking of the purity and seeing the baby I also saw two heart muscles. This time they were healthy flesh looking, they glistened a little. And it almost looked like the shape of a simple drawn heart like a little girl would draw. That was the shape, but the image was 3D flesh. And these two heart muscles are joined and beating in rythmn. The image felt wholesome and pure and healthy. It felt good that the soreness and the image of those two hearts sewn together, which was a bit bloody, had been replaced by this healthy beating heart two lobed heart.

~ Annie

He Showed Me My Soul: A Testimony


My dear sister Clare,

My dear sister Clare

If the Lord leads you to do so then it will be alright, but i will explain some parts what exactly happened when he showed me things between him and me when he took me in my spirit to heaven ….the place was full of details i had the feeling i know this place very well.   It seemed to be a place where my soul suits in   and it felt home but it was more then this.  The fragrance was full of my own soul but pure and divine.  The Lord was standing by big large huge Bushes ….. and i could draw a picture of the whole place.  There where two large Buildings like in a  Villa Style. While this happened i was laying in bed i listened to worship Musik and i shivered and his spirit was moving down and up through my body and my soul…i got healed by each revelation i received….tears where running down my cheek and sometimes i laughed ……. in the Bushes there Where bottles of tears … in a hiding room when i saw the bushes i knew they where hiding a secret and i understood that those tears where mine I cried during my whole life Later He showed me in a very deep way that he cried much more for me then i did and that every tear he cried kept me alive in him drawing me each time back to Him.  When i was seperatet from him He also had His bottles with tears standing in a line above mine.  I asked Him if i can worship him for his love and felt like bowing down to his feet.  I love to bow down to his feet and just kiss his feet and rest there!  He said “you really love to do so” i said, “yes”.  I wanted to cry on His feet and felt led to ask if i can pour out one bottle of my tears on his feet he said “yes”.   When i did this i cried and was delivered  and washed from deep pain inside my soul …many other things happened but i cant explain everything.  He showed me two other places, too.  Everything started with your song “Liberation” in your playlist on the channel.  I was crying a lot because i was longing so much after Him and then i went to bed.   I started to listen to the song and suddenly i found myself on a beach and i saw light shooting like little balls through the air… all of this matched to the song…. and i had the feeling that the sound and the things i saw where   a part of my identity like those  light balls he showed me that my heart is making a sound all the time like water that flows down in  a stream.   I saw in my spirit that my  reasoning is like water before him that flows all the time like a stream he loves to listen to.  Then He showed me my soul. i can’t explain it exactly it was just me- how he created me in a special way -so unique that i don’t have to look to other people because i am beautiful the way i am with all the details:  my passion, the way i express my love, and so on.  This was the very first experience like this ever …. i follow him now for over 20 years i had so many ups and downs and already huge revalations but he had to allow  that the enemy could crush me because  i was a very stubborn girl … i experienced   a lot of things.   Most of it where demons attacking me in the night.  He always protected me and i could learn a lot about warfare …..but i always missed Him and a divine revelation about his Love …i complained a lot.  I said to him ” why you just dont show up like you do with others?” …..”why i can’t see you?”   He said “But you see me already with your spiritual eyes”.  Now i understand that we have to be bolder when we come to him to get closer to Him ………and i said “but i really want to see you …..and i want to go home”  (because i didn’t felt secure most of the time …the fear of getting separated from him was so strong ).  He said, again,  “The way I do it for now is the best for you”  and i accept it.   The   conversations we had where much more  complex than i can explain  here but this was the bottom line.  The biggest problem i had all the time was to face my broken self esteem ..He is working on this a long time ….i only felt loved when i could express myself through other people- sucking all the love out of them and looking all the time for attention. It made me a slave for people ….in the last three years i am going to consistent revival with repentance, brokenness, and loosing my life literally… and i had so much hunger for him that i just cry out to him most of the time with a heart full of thanksgiving for everything he did for me already ……ahh Clare it would fill up a thick book to explain everything in heaven! it will be revealed in just one moment to all my sisters and brothers if the Lord allows it…but i think you got a good picture now because you know by yourself what i am trying to explain ……. fact is since i found your channel i got bolder and i see a open land now with truth and justice, pure intimacy with my Lord and King and i know he is doing it because he will want me to be   ready for Him.  I almost cant believe it that He wants me for himself to be his Bride and wife forever but he is forcing me to really believe it…… He is trying to prove to me all the time that he really wanted me with his whole heart … he always is saying to me “My dove”.  He did this already before i found your channel for years now…. he started to say those things over ten years ago but now i understand much more what he means by this.  He is saying then “my beautiful one; My pure one;  My dove”…….and now He is saying things like i have “eyes like a dove” ….In german it is something like “dovey eyes”.  I understand that all of this is His character becoming flesh in me because he is like a dove,too- so  sensitive  ……….i only touched the surface with this e-mail- what just happened in the last two weeks but i have to close up now because the rest and most of it i will keep for us – for me and my Jesus – the One who ever cared for me,  Who wanted me when nobody knew who i am truly in Him and who will for ever Love me.  This is just a short testimony of his faith- fullness that he will reward us with Himself if we dont give up and search for Him with all of our heart and that he can make our heart complete in him .  Also when we are still far away struggling with sin if we keep on trusting him that his power will make a way so  never give up…dear ones of Jesus …  i love you all…. we will be soon Home.  It always will be soon; our life is so short this way or another.  We are going to face eternity very soon.
Love Elisabeth

Dream Revealing the Hidden Recesses of the Heart


The following is a letter and dream received by one who loves the Lord and whom our Lord is revealing different things in her that He wants to heal, so that she can be used as His instrument as a Watchman for His Kingdom.   Below is her email to me as well as the dream He just gave her that reveals what all of us need healing in..   our hidden iniquities that need to come out in the open between us and the Lord so He can heal us of them,  and then we can be used for the good of others:

“I had to write you this morning. I had many apocalyptic and God dreams around 2010-2012 after a near death in April of 2010. God had used this to bring me back to Him and draw me away from worldly things. He stripped me of everything. Acting, modeling, girl backup groups, photoshoots, boyfriend, partying, drinking, and He used this time to refine me with fire from heaven! My heart changed, my thoughts changed, my desires and priorities changed and while I was born again since I was 20 I was living for me and life was all about me. The Lord wanted to make it clear its all about HIM. I lost many friends during that time. Life has become lonely as my daughter is grown and I have been single for many years. God has blessed me with two amazing companion kitties, Josie and Sweet Pea. the same company for 28 yrs and in April was given a layoff notice. …….God has limited what I can do and it has slowed me down allot. I have worked for  I believe The Lord has removed me from the daily stress and anxiety grind after my entire life’s career to be able to spend all of my energies for Kingdom purpose……

I have had no dreams from The Lord since around late 2012 and now that my head is clear and my anxiety has been lowered I asked The Lord if there was anything in me that has kept me from hearing from Him in dreams and why I have felt far from Him. God showed me just a week ago a few hidden sins in the deepest corners of my heart that were unsightly to Him. Anger and resentment …feelings of rejection  … The Lord also showed me how He hates it when I talk about people because of my contempt or feelings of rejection. I have repented of these filthy rags and with the Holy Spirit’s help I will overcome. The thing I have not had is LOVE for others. Sometimes I don’t feel well and it makes me short with others…God is showing me these little things He wants cleaned out of my heart.   …..My whole life has become research and study for end times, things of the Bible, prophecy, Israel, and how current events and daily headlines line up with Bible prophecy. Now that I am not working I have hours and hours to study and it is all that is in my heart these days……

So with all my heart I talked to the Lord last night. I told Him I wanted to have purpose and to be involved and if He wanted me to share my dreams online I would but I had to know for absolute sure it was from Him and not from me trying to get attention and glory….its not about me! I told The Lord if He wanted me to do this it was up to Him to give me a dream for confirmation and I would do nothing until He gave me a dream. I have not heard from the Lord in a few years, and have felt far from Him. I gave it up to Him, thanked Him and went about my day.
I woke this morning in absolute amazement that The Lord of all would answer my prayers in such a tangible way and want to use such an imperfect selfish sinner such as me. After nearly 3 years, the same night I repented, and prayed earnestly, He gave me a dream! This is the dream:”
I found myself walking out at night in a residential area, I felt I might be in danger and stayed up near the lit homes. I came to a bar where my sister was and was relieved to see her. There were many people there I kind of knew and then a gang of girls started getting angry at me, I grabbed my sweaters (I had about 3 or 4) and tried to leave. They stopped me and I looked for my sister and she was not around. One of the girls kept telling me I did something to her back some years ago. I asked her name and said I don’t even know who you are. She kept insisting and still I said I don’t even know you. If I did anything to you I am sorry but I don’t remember you. I quickly left and found myself walking along the interstate in the dark. People became unruly and crazy and they were driving like they were out of mad max with their headlights blaring coming off the roads into the valley next to the interstate. People were running from something but when I asked one woman she smiled and no idea. Everyone was flooring it into the valley in the dark with high beams coming out of the trees. I thought I should go with them and was suddenly in my sports car but I couldn’t go where they were going because the water was too deep. I tried to drive to the right…too deep and floody. I tried to drive where others sped, but it was too floody for my little sports car. I decided to go back to the road and get on the I-5 South highway. I barely was able to cross the street people were driving out of control. I came to a small shopping area and looked intently for the freeway signs. I had to get out and go through a store. When I came out of the store 4 women who said they were cops who clearly were not dressed as cops stopped me and demanding I pay them. I said when did Macys start charging people to leave their store? I tried to be nice as I was scared and opened my bags and I had delicious bbq’d ribs and gave them each one rib and three of them chowed down. The other wanted money, she was obese and was holding a large see through bag of money. She wanted my cash. I had always kept money stashed and was going to hand her my cash and I woke up.”
~Laura Keri
editor’s note:  The gang of indignant girls in the dream seem to represent hidden resentments and unforgiveness that needs to be handed over to the Lord.   The female “cops” also speak of “justice” and a need to be justified and “repaid” for past wrongs and debts owed by others.     Laura received this overnight after praying to the Lord if He would be able to again give her dreams as He had in the past.
The pork ribs given to these female “cops” seem to indicate the carnal self-life , human nature needing to be satisfied.   The speeding out of control cars on the highway speaks of our human natures “out of control’ because it is not controlled by the Holy Spirit.  If our Lord reveals anything to you on this dream, please feel free to share what He shows you..