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New Beginnings: Finding Jesus AFTER Religion

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Good Morning Dear Sister Clare, I am writing this in response to some negative videos about your channel and your video about “There are no bigots in heaven” which pertains to your testimonial. First of all I want to mention that I rededicated my life to our Lord 3 years ago in February. When I rededicated my life, there was a specific YouTube channel which I will not name, which actually converted me back to our Lord. I ended up corresponding via email for almost a year with a couple of different followers of this channel. At that time, I was starved for fellowship and support after having gone through a major move, divorce and bankruptcy so needless to say….I was a mess. I even donated some money one time and received a book they had published about the Holy Spirit being a woman and the true queen of heaven. I kept an open mind, read the book, prayed for discernment and it did not feel right in my spirit. You see, when I was a teenager, I was so thirsty for our lord and I wanted the baptism of the Holy Spirit and boy did I get it! LOL…so powerful and profound. Surged through my whole body from head to toe and was filled with so much love and joy and spoke in tongues.

Unfortunately, at that time I was living with my Aunt and Uncle who were atheists and forbade me from going to church any more and hanging out with my christian friends. This was back in the 70’s and they called them Holy Rollers. Needless to say, I ended up drifting away, became back-slidden until I met my husband who was a Catholic.

I converted into Catholicism and we started going to the Latin Mass. There was beauty in some of the prayers and reverence but there was No doubting the focus on praying to Mary and the Saints. On 3 separate occasions and always during the Rosary….Something pulled on my bottom right hand corner shirt. It was a good yank and I thought that maybe it was my Guardian angel letting me know that my mind was wandering or something. I kind of just shrugged it off but where ever we moved, strange things started happening. One night while sleeping, a music box out of thin air started playing, there were loud smacking noises in the kitchen like someone had taken a long yard stick and smacked my wooden kitchen table. 3 times in a row. So, we had a priest come into our home and bless it and as a family we all did the Rosary. This did help for a while then things got really bad. My husband at that time, lost his job, there was so much tension and stress and I was a stay at home mom with 5 children. Long story short, we ended up loosing our home in Arizona, filled for bankruptcy and divorced. So with all that said, I feel like the enemy used Catholicism to destroy and break up our family.

 

After my 5th child I almost hemorrhaged to death so my husband had a vasectomy so I would not get pregnant again. Plus we started late so I was in my 40’s and we were struggling financially. Well, he went to the priest to confess this and he told my husband to go home,  he would pray on it and to come back. He did not give him absolution. This was another blow to our faith. We ended up moving back here to California which is where we met and had our first 2 children. I was so disillusioned with the Catholic faith and I felt that I had been so deceived. So, 3 years ago when I rededicated my life, it has been a spiritual journey and growth with our Lord. NOT a church and I feel closer to him and the Holy Spirit and Our Father then I ever had before.

I discovered your channel about a year ago and I explored your website extensively. I watched almost every video on there, downloaded the binding prayer several times as they became updated and I love your version of the Divine Mercy Chaplet. I have it on both my tablet and a CD that I listen to in my vehicle and listen to it as I drive. I used to pray the Divine Mercy Chaplet years ago but it pertained to the Hail Mary Prayer. I appreciate this beautiful prayer and the fact without dishonoring Mary, that you have alleviated that from your version of the prayer.

 

So with all that said…..Almost 2 weeks ago, again without mentioning the channel….Some very negative videos were posted about your channel. They mentioned your testimonial, the Divine Mercy Chaplet but what they did NOT follow through with was the TRUTH. Well, I wasn’t sure at first what to believe. This was the channel that I had been converted from, but as I mentioned earlier, I was not comfortable with the Holy Spirit book they wrote. So, as a test I think, I felt that the Holy Spirit wanted me to stop listening and to pray for discernment. I have been praying EVERY day for 3 years that The Holy Spirit would not let me be deceived. Been there, done that! So for the last 10 days, I have been praying for the truth even though I honestly felt in my spirit that they were wrong and that what you do here on this channel is truth and love.

 

I finally received my confirmation this week. 2 evenings ago I was taking my early evening walk before it gets dark, while I walk I pray and I looked up in the sky and I saw a cloud formation shaped like a heart. I though OK, this is great,  Lord, but I need more confirmation.

 

So the night after that I kept praying and asking and all night while I was dreaming I kept seeing hearts. I saw a person drawing a heart in the sand and I just kept seeing hearts so this to me was the confirmation I seeked. Thank You Lord. So now, I have a whole bunch of videos to watch and get caught up on. You have NO idea how hard it was for me NOT to watch your videos. But, I listened to the Holy Spirit and this was what I needed to do. So I listened to your “There are no bigots in heaven” video once again and Now I see how the enemy spoke untruths.  First of all if they had truly listened to your videos they would know that the Hail May is not in your version of the Divine Mercy Chaplet;  how our Lord brought you out of the New Age movement and how you destroyed all the paraphernalia pertaining to that belief and following.

 

 I know this has been a lengthy email but I wanted to submit this as a testimonial to support your channel and to all fellow Heart Dwellers here. I feel that this channel is full of Love and truth and as the scriptures say….You will know them by their fruits. God Bless you Clare & Ezekiel and to those that help with your posts and replies.

 

You have my permission to use this if you want. All Praise, Honor & Glory to our Father in heaven. Amen!
Kim
(Childofyahushua)

 

May Jesus Be Our Compass

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I recently had a dream where I was flying over towns, neighborhoods, etc..  The only thing was that I got carried away and flew farther than I had expected and ended up over the ocean near some islands with palm trees.   In the dream I then pulled out my arm from my side and had a compass on my arm .. in the style of a wristwatch.    I realized I had to go back North if I wanted to get back home… and the Lord was showing me through ths dream that I need to abide in  Him and let HIM be my Compass. .  not myself and my own self-will,  or I will get lost.        So in this dream, sure I was flying over everything, but in my situation,  that didn’t mean that I was free of earthly attachments or bondages as the masses are.     It meant that I was still in bondage to myself and still went where I wanted to go without His leading… .This dream showed me that I still need to follow Jesus as Lord in my life yet,..     I am still my own “god” in  a sense, and I need to die to myself so that I can let HIM lead.   There is still much bondage in me yet.. bondage not of sin, but of SELF..   Which is why in the scriptures Jesus said, “Why do you call me “Lord, Lord’ but do not do the things that I say?”               I asked the Lord about all this, and how I don’t really feel I am at that place in my spiritual growth yet where I am actually pleasing to Him .. yet.      If He looks at me, it’s with a look of pity and patience  but not of admiration.       I opened to “He and I”, and He gave me this.. which gives me encouragement ..   “All that is good in you is I Myself, so make room for Me.”            So He’s telling me, “Yes, you are correct..  all that is good in you is Me that you see within you., so be like John the Baptist and pray that you will decrease so that I can increase within you.”

Be Prepared For His Return

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This morning I had a very sobering dream.. a warning to the Church and to myself as well…, that I and we need to stay alert and walk circumspectly and not as fools .. for the days are evil.  (Ephesians 5:15)

In this dream I and my family were just coming back from vacation  and had not given ourselves enough time to be ready for a special church service that was about to begin within minutes.   I saw the church building that looked very similar to the one I go to, only it was much larger and had different rooms attached to each other but separate from each other.   There was a main hallway and a downstairs Sunday school room for the children to also learn.   In spirit I visited the room I was to be seated at and noticed everyone dressed respectfully in modest suits for the men and modest dresses or skirts for the women..   Nothing over the top or flashy/blingy..   just ordinary attire one would wear going to an office job.   The people were all either seated and waiting or getting seated., and the service was about to start very soon.    Everyone was in anticipation for the Speaker.. who I realized after the dream would be Jesus.. and they were waiting for His very soon return.   All the separate rooms in this large church represent the different Ministries and Callings our Lord has given His Body and Bride to Be..   Some were Evangelical.  Some were ministries that dealt with the backslidden, etc., etc.  Only our Lord knows all His different ministries., and they all will be revealed to us by Him one day.

Each of these were separated but joined together into one big building and only One Speaker would be coming..  who I now know would be Jesus upon His soon return.     I and my family were not ready or prepared.  Having just come back from vacation, I still had on very overly casual clothing and I thought in the dream how goofy and foolish looking what I had on was.. definitely not something I want to be at this special service wearing.   I panicked in the dream because I knew the service was going to start within minutes and I could not find what I knew I needed to wear.   I knew I would not have enough time to find something decent , put it on and make the service which would be starting in any minute.   Almost everyone was seated and everyone was dressed.  I was the only one not prepared.

Also, in my dream, I said something to my father right upon arrival that we should be thankful that God even gave us the teachings and ministry He has through the servants He provided for us.    My father scoffed at my remark and sarcastically said something like, ‘yeahhhh, right,… whatever!”   and after hearing him say this, I actually felt the Lord’s affliction and His grief at my father’s attitude.   I then, in my dream said to my father (and this was not from me, but from the Holy Spirit to not only him.. but all those with his attitude)  “If you do not repent of your attitude you will be weeping tears in Hell”.    But the way the Lord had me say it was not in indignation and anger, but in deep grief and sadness.  I felt no anger., but only deep sadness that our Lord was feeling with his remark.

Also, the Lord showed me this dream as a warning for myself ..  because what I was wearing was comparable to the man who entered the wedding feast without the garment of the Lord’s choosing.. and he was made to leave.      The garment represents the Lord’s character that the Holy Spirit wants to give us, but we can think   our OWN goodness (garment) is good enough and not feel the need for our Lord to do His inner work within us to transform us.

The casual clothes I was wearing represents the danger of even we Christians to take our spiritual relationship with the Lord too casually.. We can take Him for granted and live a life of compromise and distractions from Him.   Just because we had an initial Salvation experience is not enough.. we need to continue to seek after Him and live our lives in His presence, with a greater desire to love and obey Him.

The fact that we were just coming back from vacation represents how those in the days of Noah and these present times now put too much emphasis and priority on entertainment and leisure (vacations) which are not bad things in themselves, but if not led by the Lord, they can make us preoccupied to leave any time for us with the Lord.  Our being late after returning from a vacation represents how we were not prepared spiritually and lived our lives like one big feel good entertainment vacation.. without being prepared and alert that we were “running late.”

The Lord gave me scriptures of the Parable of the Foolish Virgins and the Parable of the Wedding Feast and man without the wedding garment.

and then I opened to “He and I” asking the Lord if He had anything for me there of further input to go along with His dream He gave me.   This is what I blindly opened to:  “”I have called you to union.  My invitation is for every man, woman and child, yet few have listened.  Very few have responded to the call.  Gabrielle, My little girl, consent to this oneness.  there is still time.  You will console Me and you will make amends for yourself.  You will give Me, as it were, a taste for forgiveness.
     Oh, My little ones, created by Me, what power is yours!  Let your heart overflow with love and gratitude.  What would you find to love outside of Me?” (pge 258- opened blindly after asking God to give me something for this dream)

Not Tomorrow, Not Yesterday, But TODAY!

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Earlier this week I was trying to set aside my days off from work to be totally with the Lord.,  but I made the mistake of watching a video that, while the Lord had inspired it, it was not something He wanted me to be focusing my attention on at that moment.    It was regarding the upcoming Shemitah this September 2015, … an interview with Jonathan Cahn who recommended preparing for what crisis is due to occur at that time, due to the United State’s hardness of heart and the seven year cycles of warnings God has permitted for us and Israel.
     I became preoccupied and worried about my 401k rollover , where I have some conservative stocks that I was obsessing if I should exchange them for bonds, .etc..  due to this upcoming Shemitah.       This got in the way of my personal time with the Lord…   and robbed me of my joy of being with Him.
   I was reminded that all of these things are not going to last anyway, and our Home is not here on this Earth.    The only reason I even have a 401k is due to starting up one at an insurance company I used to work at years ago.  When I quit there, I needed to roll the money over or else pay heavy penalty fees.    So out of fear, I just rolled it over into my insurance company’s own 401k .     Since I am single and know I will be living on an extremely limited income, with hardly any social security by the time I retire, I felt having this would keep me from being homeless by the time I’m 75.    Forget about luxuries or cruises..
Well, my straying from the Lord that day by watching that video anyway, opened the door to a lot of anxiety and I wasn’t truly able to connect with the Lord all that day afterwards.  I also had to be at work the next day and was not happy.  That evening I asked the Lord to please help.  Should I wait until another  me.. “should I concern myself about my IRA right now?” I asked Him.  Opening up at random to a book I purchased of a woman’s personal testimony with the Lord, I came to a chapter with the heading, “Provision By Heavenly Provider”.   Not a coincidence, I realized!..  I  told no one about this situation between me and the Lord and my spiritual “ADHD” and anxiety over the future,     but a friend of mine who has been baptized by the Holy Spirit years ago, sent me an email with a personal message from our Lord.   One part of it was separate from the rest of the message and was emailed to me separately.
    It was our Lords’ words through her which said this:   “He is the God of now!  So do not fret in the day… just for the moment you have;  Not the one before or the one to come– now, now… just now.” 
I emailed my friend that this was more than a coincidence… and she had no way of knowing.   The next morning I received her reply in my gmail, but I could not find that original message she sent me whatsoever.  Luckily I had copied down the message in my journal.   in fact, my friend seemed to be unsure what I was referring to in her reply.     It was as though the Lord emailed me separately using my friend’s email and it was only meant for that moment in time for me.     not the past, nor the future, but this moment in time is where He can be found..  in the Now!.
update 5/17/2015- 8:05 am.    In my morning devotions before getting ready for Sunday school this morning, this is what the Lord gave me from His words in ‘He and I”:   “My Child, ponder ore often on the value of the present moment, the danger of going back over the past and the uselessness of gazing into the future.  Just live the moment you have in your hands simply and lovingly.”
Earlier this morning in prayer, I heard the words with Him using my own thoughts to speak them, say “Moments fleeting“.
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