Archive | April 10, 2016

New Beginnings: Finding Jesus AFTER Religion

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Good Morning Dear Sister Clare, I am writing this in response to some negative videos about your channel and your video about “There are no bigots in heaven” which pertains to your testimonial. First of all I want to mention that I rededicated my life to our Lord 3 years ago in February. When I rededicated my life, there was a specific YouTube channel which I will not name, which actually converted me back to our Lord. I ended up corresponding via email for almost a year with a couple of different followers of this channel. At that time, I was starved for fellowship and support after having gone through a major move, divorce and bankruptcy so needless to say….I was a mess. I even donated some money one time and received a book they had published about the Holy Spirit being a woman and the true queen of heaven. I kept an open mind, read the book, prayed for discernment and it did not feel right in my spirit. You see, when I was a teenager, I was so thirsty for our lord and I wanted the baptism of the Holy Spirit and boy did I get it! LOL…so powerful and profound. Surged through my whole body from head to toe and was filled with so much love and joy and spoke in tongues.

Unfortunately, at that time I was living with my Aunt and Uncle who were atheists and forbade me from going to church any more and hanging out with my christian friends. This was back in the 70’s and they called them Holy Rollers. Needless to say, I ended up drifting away, became back-slidden until I met my husband who was a Catholic.

I converted into Catholicism and we started going to the Latin Mass. There was beauty in some of the prayers and reverence but there was No doubting the focus on praying to Mary and the Saints. On 3 separate occasions and always during the Rosary….Something pulled on my bottom right hand corner shirt. It was a good yank and I thought that maybe it was my Guardian angel letting me know that my mind was wandering or something. I kind of just shrugged it off but where ever we moved, strange things started happening. One night while sleeping, a music box out of thin air started playing, there were loud smacking noises in the kitchen like someone had taken a long yard stick and smacked my wooden kitchen table. 3 times in a row. So, we had a priest come into our home and bless it and as a family we all did the Rosary. This did help for a while then things got really bad. My husband at that time, lost his job, there was so much tension and stress and I was a stay at home mom with 5 children. Long story short, we ended up loosing our home in Arizona, filled for bankruptcy and divorced. So with all that said, I feel like the enemy used Catholicism to destroy and break up our family.

 

After my 5th child I almost hemorrhaged to death so my husband had a vasectomy so I would not get pregnant again. Plus we started late so I was in my 40’s and we were struggling financially. Well, he went to the priest to confess this and he told my husband to go home,  he would pray on it and to come back. He did not give him absolution. This was another blow to our faith. We ended up moving back here to California which is where we met and had our first 2 children. I was so disillusioned with the Catholic faith and I felt that I had been so deceived. So, 3 years ago when I rededicated my life, it has been a spiritual journey and growth with our Lord. NOT a church and I feel closer to him and the Holy Spirit and Our Father then I ever had before.

I discovered your channel about a year ago and I explored your website extensively. I watched almost every video on there, downloaded the binding prayer several times as they became updated and I love your version of the Divine Mercy Chaplet. I have it on both my tablet and a CD that I listen to in my vehicle and listen to it as I drive. I used to pray the Divine Mercy Chaplet years ago but it pertained to the Hail Mary Prayer. I appreciate this beautiful prayer and the fact without dishonoring Mary, that you have alleviated that from your version of the prayer.

 

So with all that said…..Almost 2 weeks ago, again without mentioning the channel….Some very negative videos were posted about your channel. They mentioned your testimonial, the Divine Mercy Chaplet but what they did NOT follow through with was the TRUTH. Well, I wasn’t sure at first what to believe. This was the channel that I had been converted from, but as I mentioned earlier, I was not comfortable with the Holy Spirit book they wrote. So, as a test I think, I felt that the Holy Spirit wanted me to stop listening and to pray for discernment. I have been praying EVERY day for 3 years that The Holy Spirit would not let me be deceived. Been there, done that! So for the last 10 days, I have been praying for the truth even though I honestly felt in my spirit that they were wrong and that what you do here on this channel is truth and love.

 

I finally received my confirmation this week. 2 evenings ago I was taking my early evening walk before it gets dark, while I walk I pray and I looked up in the sky and I saw a cloud formation shaped like a heart. I though OK, this is great,  Lord, but I need more confirmation.

 

So the night after that I kept praying and asking and all night while I was dreaming I kept seeing hearts. I saw a person drawing a heart in the sand and I just kept seeing hearts so this to me was the confirmation I seeked. Thank You Lord. So now, I have a whole bunch of videos to watch and get caught up on. You have NO idea how hard it was for me NOT to watch your videos. But, I listened to the Holy Spirit and this was what I needed to do. So I listened to your “There are no bigots in heaven” video once again and Now I see how the enemy spoke untruths.  First of all if they had truly listened to your videos they would know that the Hail May is not in your version of the Divine Mercy Chaplet;  how our Lord brought you out of the New Age movement and how you destroyed all the paraphernalia pertaining to that belief and following.

 

 I know this has been a lengthy email but I wanted to submit this as a testimonial to support your channel and to all fellow Heart Dwellers here. I feel that this channel is full of Love and truth and as the scriptures say….You will know them by their fruits. God Bless you Clare & Ezekiel and to those that help with your posts and replies.

 

You have my permission to use this if you want. All Praise, Honor & Glory to our Father in heaven. Amen!
Kim
(Childofyahushua)