… I remember very well how this came to be written years ago. I was lying prostrate on the floor in the middle of the night, having a lovely time with the Lord. I had a notebook and pen beside me on the floor, ready to write what the Lord said. He began talking about being ‘dead to myself.’ I jotted down what He said (writing ‘Jesus’ instead of ‘Me’) and, as it meant so much to me to get it all down correctly, I asked Him to repeat it all and He did:
“To be dead to self means to be on the Cross with Jesus, doing nothing to retaliate when people mock you, hurt you, criticise and judge you unfairly.
“It means to pray for them, bless them and show only love for them, thinking not at all of yourself and the hurts they may be causing you so undeservedly.
“It means not to want to be right, not to justify yourself, nor even to think about yourself and your situation.
“It means not to talk about yourself and not to seek attention.
“It means there is no more self – it is dead: buried with Christ in His death.
“How dead are you?
“Do you still smart when others are unkind, and overlook you?
“Do you still long to be noticed, to be appreciated, to be thought well of?
“Jesus made Himself nothing for you; He made Himself of no reputation. He stooped far lower for you than you will ever be called to do, and in the midst of His agony His only thoughts were of love for His enemies.
“How dead are you?
“Does it still matter to you to have your own way, to have things go well for you?
“Does it still matter to you to hear your name mentioned in praise?
“Can you joyfully let your will, even your deepest desires, be utterly crucified on His Cross?
“Can you say, and mean, “I am crucified with Christ, nevertheless I live, yet not I, but Christ lives in me?”
“Only through death comes life. Are you willing to be that grain of wheat which falls into the ground and dies? If it does not die it abides alone, but if it dies it brings forth much fruit.
“Are you willing?
“Are you willing to be made willing?”
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