To begin with I’m going to share that Jesus has been inviting and bringing me into a deeper level of spiritual love and intimacy between Him and I for the last year. And last week He managed to break through my last strongholds on the way of our hearts becoming truly united into one in love- our personal pure holy heavenly love. He gave a vision and a revelation to my closest sister in Christ during our worship time together, putting all my doubts and fears to an end, confirming every word He had spoken to me before (because I’d still had doubts whenever He’d revealed things to me personally…) showing her MY heart and the kind of love I have for Him and that yes, this love is all He created Me for, ALL- literally meaning EVERYTHING… that He doesn’t want or need anything from me apart from this love- this is my destiny- my purpose- my ministry- just to love and to console Him day and night- staying locked in His garden just for Him- a sacrifice of love, just to be with Him, think of Him every second of every hour of every day not letting Him out of my mind and heart and that I was born for this kind of relationship with Him and only I can satisfy a longing in His heart for this kind of profound love which He has found in my heart (it is a gift which He endowed me with from the beginning, I guess), and what He also showed her was that He is so desperate for the love that I am giving to Him that it is as essential to Him as the very air we breathe (please don’t get me wrong, it’s a personal revelation, everyone is uniquely unique to God!) (it still is a mystery to me… and a bit of a shock, but YES, after this revelation I finally felt every chain broken and that I could be finally free soaring on the wings of love with Jesus- my Love, my Creator, my Husband and my ALL! Such liberty! I felt completed, having finally met my whole purpose of life! Such a sense of fullness of life! I finally can LIVE LOVE!!!!!!! It is my oxygen too… which satan has been trying to shut off with every possibly assignment… )
So… I finally let the holy passion of love flow freely from my heart to the Heart of my God and our prayer times became really Heavenly intimate as if Jesus is showing His human side to me in being impatient to start our Heaven on earth already now (as with all of youJ) So He holds me ever so gently and gives me a kiss on a forehead …And at times when it is really heavy on His heart, like a deep- deep sorrow, He shares His pain with me and asks to just worship Him and then I see his joy and how happy He is to finally have all of me in His arms. Awe! It’s divine!
So, what happened was, that the day before yesterday I got a demonic intervention into our holy time… A demon of lust or whatever… but now I already knew what I was dealing with and I rebuked the unclean spirits, trying to stay calm and asked the Lord what it was and why He let it happen. I got a reply that it was a test of virtue and He had to let it happen, however was sorry for it. The next day it happened again right in the middle of the sweetest exchange of tenderness… But I felt a deep peace inside that everything was under His control, I didn’t freak out, even though it was very disgusting… I felt a profound peace indeed, I guess it was His protection on my emotional response, otherwise I don’t know what would have happened to me… So I cried out: Lord, deliver me from evil! And I suddenly saw Jesus, like in the scene from the movie The Passion of Christ, lying on the ground, all covered in blood, in the pool of blood… I don’t even know whether He was alive or it was His dead body just taken down from the cross… But He was extremely deformed even worse than it is shown in the movie… And I was there bending down on my knees, holding Him and He said: “Stay with Me like this”.
The demonic sexual manifestations stopped as He switched my mind on to His suffering and I started to cry with Him, realizing how horrible it was indeed… When we finished our prayer time, I still felt some sort of heaviness from those spirits of lust and a need in a rhema word from God. So I prayerfully opened the Bible and got the Revelation 2: 24 Now I say to the rest of you … ‘I will not impose any other burden on you, 25 except to hold on to what you have until I come.’26 To the one who is victorious and does my will to the end, I will give authority over the nations— 27 that one ‘will rule them with an iron scepter and will dash them to pieces like pottery’[b]—just as I have received authority from my Father. 28 I will also give that one the morning star.
As I got it from the Holy Spirit, that yes, that was a test, a trial… As long as my ministry is love therefore I am being severely put to the tests of purity and virtue.
In a few minutes later I had to go and get my two older children from school and when I got my keys out, I saw a piece of paper falling out of my bag, I picked it up and marveled… it read (and it was not my handwriting!): “Revelation 2:28… read the context…”and then something else. I was like: WHAT??????
So I got a bit nervous and called my best friend and a sister to ask for a prayer and she said that would inquire God about me. So when she called back, she got a word from the Lord actually confirming what He gave to me from the Revelation and it was Mark 9:12 …How then is it written about the Son of Man that He must suffer many things and be treated with contempt?
The way the Lord explained it to her was through John 15:20 …A servant is not greater than his master… and that it is my portion of shame and contempt, through tempting by this evil creatures. And it WAS shameful, I must say… So it’s like the suffering which I have to go through but in my own way, as death of our Lord on the cross was a total humiliation, they hung them on those crosses absolutely naked even without any covering, not like we see it in movies… He gave her three more verses from the scriptures, but this one was the most confirming.
And today I checked for a new message on youtube from Clare and when I just read the title I was already very surprised, so as I started listening it was a very real confirmation for me especially when Clare mentioned seeing the Lord all covered in blood – absolutely the same vision as He gave to me.
God bless you, dear heartdwellers, maybe it will help somebody.
~Shared by Olga Svarychevskaya