I was at the end of a dream, lost to fog, but Jesus was speaking to me basically about priorities or split responsibilities- I’ve lost most of it. And then I was like, ‘of course’, and started rattling off the scripture around “No man comes to the Father but by me”, and I don’t normally quote scripture in conversation or my dreams… I’ll tell you what I remember about the setting of the dream too if it helps. Not a whole lot of detail, but I remember He was talking about this to me as we sat in small chairs around a small table on a porch, with a rolling, short grass field behind, and I remember a tree further back. It’s kind of what I think of as a university park, if it were only the two of us and no cars or pavement etc. Naturally well lit, but in the shade of an overhanging roof. Not a lot of detail, but like a teacher and student having a conversation. And then I responded with that section of Scripture in acknowledgement as I woke up. Also, I had said a prayer asking about this in particular just before sleeping, because it’s been so heavily on my mind, initially only slept just over 2, 2 1/2 hours, so it was a very quick answer to that prayer. But it took half the day afterwards for me to put it together. 😛 lol
So, I’ve kind of had a messiah complex most of my life, trying to save everybody. My interest in science was always superceded.. geared to saving the world, the environment, etc. But I was never able to make a path to that end. Probably good, because I highly leaned toward physics and genetics. And my interest in politics in the past was the same thing. I wanted to save everyone, in terms of a better system but that was also blocked. So I’ve been struggling for years with the idea that not everybody can be saved; it’s by their own choice, I can’t save everyone. And the last few months, that transitioned to spiritually. Well, really for years, it’d just hit me. I’d gladly give my earthly life if I could save everyone despite themselves, if it were possible, I keep going back to that. The idea that anybody has to fall and I can’t drag them right back out of the Abyss has eaten at me. So Jesus was telling me that that’s His and His alone, and not my burden. It’s decided, and I don’t bear that responsibility or have that capability, nor any of us. We only deliver the message as we can and prepare ourselves, and all is His. I thank Him for that. I can let that go now. And I guess that can be a little testimony for others struggling with the same issue. We have to be ready to let go when it’s time. Lord, I pray for the grace too, that You continue to help us to let You have what’s Yours, so that we’re not held back whenever it’s time, that You continue to help us to release our burdens, and I thank you so much. In Your name Jesus, amen. Thank you.
God bless your dreams. 🙂