Now, now…Just Now
Earlier this week I was trying to set aside my days off from work to be totally with the Lord., but I made the mistake of watching a video that, while the Lord had inspired it, it was not something He wanted me to be focusing my attention on at that moment. It was regarding the upcoming Shemitah this September 2015, … an interview with Jonathan Cahn who recommended preparing for what crisis is due to occur at that time, due to the United State’s hardness of heart and the seven year cycles of warnings God has permitted for us and Israel.
I became preoccupied and worried about my 401k rollover , where I have some conservative stocks that I was obsessing if I should exchange them for bonds, .etc.. due to this upcoming Shemitah. This got in the way of my personal time with the Lord… and robbed me of my joy of being with Him.
I was reminded that all of these things are not going to last anyway, and our Home is not here on this Earth. The only reason I even have a 401k is due to starting up one at an insurance company I used to work at years ago. When I quit there, I needed to roll the money over or else pay heavy penalty fees. So out of fear, I just rolled it over into my insurance company’s own 401k . Since I am single and know I will be living on an extremely limited income, with hardly any social security by the time I retire, I felt having this would keep me from being homeless by the time I’m 75. Forget about luxuries or cruises..
Well, my straying from the Lord that day by watching that video anyway, opened the door to a lot of anxiety and I wasn’t truly able to connect with the Lord all that day afterwards. I also had to be at work the next day and was not happy. That evening I asked the Lord to please help. Should I wait until another me.. “should I concern myself about my IRA right now?” I asked Him. Opening up at random to a book I purchased of a woman’s personal testimony with the Lord, I came to a chapter with the heading, “Provision By Heavenly Provider”. Not a coincidence, I realized!.. I told no one about this situation between me and the Lord and my spiritual “ADHD” and anxiety over the future, but a friend of mine who has been baptized by the Holy Spirit years ago, sent me an email with a personal message from our Lord. One part of it was separate from the rest of the message and was emailed to me separately.
It was our Lords’ words through her which said this: “He is the God of now! So do not fret in the day… just for the moment you have; Not the one before or the one to come– now, now… just now.”
I emailed my friend that this was more than a coincidence… and she had no way of knowing. The next morning I received her reply in my gmail, but I could not find that original message she sent me whatsoever. Luckily I had copied down the message in my journal. in fact, my friend seemed to be unsure what I was referring to in her reply. It was as though the Lord emailed me separately using my friend’s email and it was only meant for that moment in time for me. not the past, nor the future, but this moment in time is where He can be found.. in the Now!.
update 5/17/2015- 8:05 am. In my morning devotions before getting ready for Sunday school this morning, this is what the Lord gave me from His words in ‘He and I”: “My Child, ponder ore often on the value of the present moment, the danger of going back over the past and the uselessness of gazing into the future. Just live the moment you have in your hands simply and lovingly.”
Earlier this morning in prayer, I heard the words with Him using my own thoughts to speak them, say “Moments fleeting“.