A few years ago whilst in prayer Jesus asked me, “have you ever come to the foot of My cross” I was shocked and frightened and I said I had often looked at Him on the cross…….but He said NO have you ever come to the foot and looked up………I started crying immediately and said no I hadn’t…….He then led me in prayer through His Holy Spirit to go back in time and walk right up to His cross……I didn’t look up at first – I was too emotional and SCARED – I felt too unworthy and was afraid of seeing His judgement of me or even worse His disappointment in me!
I never looked up – I stood at His feet looking down at them covered in blood – the nail in them – and His Blood fell down on me. The cross wasn’t as high as I had imagined and I was much closer to Him than I had expected to be. I could feel His Blood cleansing me as it fell upon me even as I cried and looked at those poor feet and kissed them and I laid my head on them and just wept. And then I found the courage to look up – it was like an electric shock that pierced my soul like nothing that I can explain or put into words my whole being was pierced and truly shocked! As I looked up into His face with His hair hanging down around it…….covered in blood and blackened He was in such terrible pain and so exhausted but what shocked me was the LOOK in His eyes!!! There was such LOVE IN HIS EYES TOWARDS ME I truly never expected that look – it DESTROYED me. And also in His look He was telling me that everything would be alright – that it was nearly done!
In that second I knew that HE KNEW ME and that HE LOVED ME UTTERLY.
That vision changed my life and still has the same effect on me every time I recall it – I try and share it with people even though its hard to because it always makes me feel so destroyed each time. IT DESTROYS every false thing in me – every sin – every negative and crucifies self over and over and removes EVERY obstacle between Him and I. I can’t explain to you how much He loves us – there are no words that can – but maybe if you ask to go in prayer to that same place He will show you too?
I had a dream where I was in a big rock cave. I looked down at my dress/robe. It was all white but when I moved it would glitter. I felt the Lord behind me. I was dancing like a little girl. Spreading the robe out and twirling and saying look at the pretty dress Jesus gave me! I looked over to the left and there was a long long staircase with people I knew. I went dancing over to them..hugging them with joy at seeing them!
After seeing about 5 or 6 people I realized they disappeared after seeing me..this confused me…I said Oh no Lord they can’t be coming to see me..I am just an old nurse..one who sinned so much..you must want Billy Graham or someone holier..not me! I am a nobody…I woke up.
About three months later I was praying and I told Him I would do whatever He said but I am pretty dumb and can’t remember verses or where they are..After I surrendered my fear..He said. Those are just the people you helped in your lifetime Debbie..I cried and cried..I love Jesus so much and have always felt so inept, so inadequate to be His bride…Since then I have received the joy that only He can give. I look forward to running into His arms!!! Come soon !!
Early in the 1990’s I had this very real joyful dream I believe came from the Lord which gave me a glimpse of Heaven. In this dream I was walking through a grey carpeted hallway.. it looked like a workplace of some kind., and actually looks like where I work right now to come to think of it. Finally I came to a room with a wall-to-wall window. At the corner of the window and room looking sadly through that window was a woman and two or three men . They were cast in grey. They had no color about them. My impression was that they were deceased. I was the only one in that room out of the three other people who was in full color.
On the other side of this window was Paradise. The river of living water was flowing throughout and there was vibrant grass, brilliant flowers and trees.. it looked like a Garden!.. and I looked out that window crying tears of Joy.. that I was able to see this at LAST! and that Heaven is definitely REAL! I was literally bawling tears of joy but the people who were grey in color looked sad .. that they were not able to cross over into this beautiful Place. The woman looked at me with a sad hopeless look and I looked at her like, “what is wrong, we can be happy!”
The dream ended and I woke up with a feeling of peace. I wrote to my pastor in NY about this dream and he was overjoyed to hear it.. and said it was truly a spiritual dream from the Lord. I asked him if the people in the dream were ghosts, and he told me not to speculate but the Lord will one day reveal it. I am often led to pray for those three people even now. The one woman actually looks very much like a woman who works there that I know. The window looks just like the window in our company lunchroom, only when you look outside our lunchroom you don’t see Paradise..lol!